Why are you happy for my failure?

3 Things I Pondered Today 

  1. What happens when you focus on the moment? 
  2. Why are you happy for my failure? 
  3. How do you push that extra mile? 

When I have a super busy day I tend to focus completely on the moment I am in. It’s a huge sigh of relief. Today I could have been really down on the day but I wasn’t. I was focused at work on my day job and getting everything done that needed to be done. I sold 3 cars today for full commissions on each car. We are salary based but after a certain number of cars we get commission. It was kind of a big deal because I could have been negative and in my feelings. I had somebody return a car but that did not stop me from selling or focusing on who and what I had in front of me. 

Secret Vinyl Club Kickstarter failed. I am so relieved by this. You would think that I would be upset but the reality of it is that project gave me a ton of anxiety. I was seriously concerned about putting it and myself out there but I am glad I did. The worse that could happen with that project might have been the best in disguise. The thought of having to go through all that it would take to produce an album myself, publish a comic and vinyl record seemed daunting. It also taught me a lot. Also literally 2 days after I put it on Kickstarter I learned about a website that does crowdfunding for record pressings and they handle the pressing and shipping. It’s also way the heck cheaper. So of course if I plan to press a record which I don’t at the moment it will be through something like that. 

I have got to say I have been really pushing myself to be more productive for my online presences and trying to hit that 100 post a day is a struggle sometimes when you work a long day. I am determine to do it. Right now I am seriously trying to get into the habit of doing 100 post a day and I have my bullet journal where I literally color in every time I post. I find myself wanting to quit and I keep pushing myself further. I can do it, I repeat to myself often. I think of this as my second job. When I am at work for somebody else’s dream I have a set number of tasks and am expected to do those tasks or not get paid. Here I am doing the same and getting my tasks done as if I was my own boss. That extra mile stretch is tough but it’s always rewarding. There is something super satisfying about coloring the 100th square.